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I didn’t get into music because I wanted to draw attention to myself. I always wanted to make stuff, and I ended up singing it myself because nobody knew who the fuck I was or gave a shit, so I had to sing it myself. Early in my career, I always used to say I wished I could just write for other people. I remember really loving songs like “Angel from Montgomery” by John Prine, or Randy Newman songs or Loudon Wainwright songs, where instead of talking about themselves, they’re writing from the point of view of a character. I was really into the idea of bringing a fictional discipline to songwriting and not making it be about the tortured diary entries of someone spilling their blood on a page. I think there was still a tendency for people to read my work like that because of the way that I sing, but that was never the goal.
That said, I’ve been doing this for a long time now, and I’ve gone through a lot of different attitudes about music, and different stages in terms of what I’m trying to do with my work. More recently, the tides have turned with rock music, and especially whatever you would call the remnants of what used to be indie rock. And I started to feel like what I was seeing with songwriting in that genre was that it was withering a little bit and that people were more concerned with vibe and production and stance than they were with construction. Specifically, I started to feel like it was rare that there was a song that had anything emotional on the line. Almost as a corrective to this, I started to notice that people were using language that had very loaded, elemental, emotionally charged words, but the words didn’t seem to be referring to anything specifically. They were just used as decoration. And I felt like I should be a counterbalance to that, like I should try to write something that was more structurally sound and that had a little more meat on the bones. In order to bring that passion and substance and emotional investment to rock music, which I feel is becoming a little milky and watered down right now, I felt like I should put something of my own on the table.
Yeah, it’s been a weird few years, and this whole thing where indie-rock musicians are shying away from making any sort of statement, whether it’s personal or political, has been particularly infuriating. Even more so because those statements are still being made in other genres, just not in indie rock.
It’s kind of like in the Great Depression, when everyone just wanted to watch Busby Berkeley movies. I think there’s a real strong current of anxiety and fear and uncertainty about the future in our culture right now. When I was writing I Am Very Far, I was trying to write about that stuff directly. By the time I got out of the I Am Very Far experience, I was a nervous wreck because I was so immersed in dread. At a certain point, you go, “All this dread is something that’s definitely in play, but I can’t live in dread forever. I have to live my life.”
How do you think the anxiety that musicians are feeling manifests itself in terms of the music that’s being made?
Well, indie rock went from something that was, you know, this alternative, post-punk reaction to the mainstream, and there was a lifestyle of rejecting the corporate control that was associated with it. Now it’s turned into, like… playing the private Red Bull after- party for $50,000 with a little wristband or being featured in an Apple ad. The way that hip-hop is openly materialistic; I think a little bit of that has started to creep in. A big part of that is that the money is drying up in the music business, and the world is really scary, and there’s a lot of people out there who are just looking to get what they can get. And so when you’re doing that, it’s not necessarily a time to take artistic chances. It’s a time to sell your lifestyle brand. Music is a lot more of a promotional accessory now, and everyone out of necessity has to cozy up to corporate sponsors. I don’t know, man. I see it a lot like the 30s. When that stuff is happening, you’re trying to get people’s minds off their troubles and make fun, high-dollar, light entertainment that doesn’t have a lot at stake. That’s my little armchair theory about it.
How have you guys handled the licensing and commercial aspect of things? I imagine you’ve had to make a lot of difficult decisions.
I’m pretty cautious about it. I filter it pretty hard. I very much remember the attitude of indie rock, when people still called it that, where you’d get in a van and, you know, DIY or whatever… I think I still have that part of my brain, so it’s a difficult terrain to navigate because my number one goal in life, after being a good person, is to be able to make stuff for the rest of my life, and that’s a very difficult path to walk when you’re walking it with limited resources. So every single month is a different negotiation, where you’re trying to figure out how you can keep doing stuff.