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With a raised eyebrow she asked, “What do you mean 'not working,' you mean sex?”
“Well yeah, sex. How do you know his not being able to, you know get hard, isn't physical? Or maybe it's mental? Which is worse? Like, how do you know you're having a good time, or that the other person is having a good time?" (For the record, this is still a question that comes up in my current sexual practice.)
“Are you having an orgasm?”
“I'm not sure?”
“Then you aren't having an orgasm. It's not just about pleasing him, you know. He's got to do some work too.”
“Oh yeah, duh. I know that.” She was blowing my mind. Even though I knew better, I secretly thought his pleasure was my pleasure, and I would cum as soon as he did. I decided to change the subject.
“So, I recently saw this movie about a gynecologist who develops these tools to work on mutant women who have like triple cervixes and double wombs. They're totally not normal.”
She moved her swivel chair slightly back from the table. “What isn't normal: the devices or the women?”
“Um, I dunno? Both, I guess.”
“Well, Lacy, we actually have a lot of women here who have more than one uterus or cervix. I would kindly ask you to stop referring to them as mutants.”
“Oh, God, I'm sorry.”
“You didn't know. Just lie back please.”
I did as I was told and scooted my naked ass down. I closed my eyes as tight as I could and held my breath.
“It helps to breathe. Relax, it's not that bad. Especially if you open your eyes and look up.”
Again I did as I was told. And that's when I saw them. Written on the ceiling were hundreds of dirty jokes.
This one has stayed with me all these years:
“What's the last thing you want to hear after sleeping with Willie Nelson?”
“I'm not Willie Nelson.”
I laughed so hard I farted.
Then I started crying because that had been the worst day of my life.
Thankfully, for the older me, the good people at Callen-Lorde have heard a lot worse.
Lacy Warner is a writer and performer living in Brooklyn. She likes puppies, pizza and wetsuits. She is single. Follow her at @laceoface.